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A beautiful song, a melody of love floated in the air. This is what I’ve heard from the radio as Valentine approaches. I may have miscalculated things, but it’s Valentines again and I am bound to spend it alone, much more I have no class by that time since it’s Wednesday. I don’t have a date too. Cupid may have excluded me from his prey.

I can choose one, I can pick any girl if I want, but I don’t want to gamble on a love that would not last. I should be careful in choosing by this time. Or shall I say I’m reserving my heart for someone, who like others seems to leave me waiting. And now, I am here left to count the hours, and the days. Oh, it’s two days more. This must be some time to act, and act decisively.

I don’t want to remember a lost love. I am here to wait for one that would blossom. And it seems there was no one, not even a shadow. Where are you my love? Why are you not answering my e-mails? And I’m here alone, holding both hands close to my body, shivering in the night, missing someone. Where were the girls I’ve loved before? They seem lost in the dark, in the shadow of my past, and I’m left alone to count the hours where I run after time.

How can I fall deeply to someone who seems not to care about me, and too busy as not to remember me? She doesn’t seem to care to answer my messages. And my heart, my heart! Who will console me? It seems I’m bound to journey life alone left in solitude of nowhere, where I seek justice to my fate. I’m a man of deep desire, and it seems not one cares to fill my heart with love.

Oh, Valentines day! My wishes for others! And for me, I have to seek my own love, one that would be caring, and would love me truly, and wait for the time we can hold each other in each arms. I’m still bound to love despite frustrations in love. And I’m here to gamble in a love that would give me attention and compassion. Where are you my love? Why are you not answering while I wait, and others also wait that I invite them in my heart? Is this a lost love again just like the past?

I beg you cupid shoot my heart! I think there’s nothing wrong with my heart. I instead ask cupid to shoot other’s heart that we may both fall in love. And who would be the lucky one who would care. It seems I’m talking to a vast space where there are no answers. And where is that love for which I’m bound to wait till the right time? No echoes as answers, not even a thunder. Serene surroundings I’ve got, unresponsive and uncaring, and is bound to keep me waiting.

My heart belongs to someone, but that someone seems not to care. And Valentine would once more be empty for me. What are left for me are the souls with whom I send my message of love sensing their need of company, compassion and salvation. HAPPY VALENTINE EVERYONE! 

- Jyotisman

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