My love for her
My love for her
I love her. Now I’m tortured by silence. Maybe she’s just busy, but I am afraid she won’t take the whole of me. Since I turned down the marriage proposal of my childhood sweetheart in the time of my illness, I get desperate every time I fall anew. Some relationships followed that end up in a parting of us lovers. And I almost did not have a real love again.
But this one I feel, I treasured most, and I long for her. She must be someone I would take as my princess though I’m poor as a rat. Though I live conveniently with my parents, I am not that affluent myself. But I dare to dream and with love color my visions. It is a wonderful perspective of a nice life I dare to paint.
But what’s the use of this if I would not find a girl who would love as much as I dare to admire her. Or what if she won’t take my old life as part of my former weakness, and the shadow that once covered me and swallowed me whole. I dare to give up everything just for her, and live a life patterned to her affiliation. And now I grope in darkness grieving for such love pure and true, where it is not stained by the world but protected by God.
And now she was here, I picture in the glare of my eyes, and thus silence kills me little by little, as I am left alone to shape my own self-inane concepts and patterns of life I dare to get rid off just for her, just for her, and only for her. Oh, how I loved her, my dream girl so pure, naïve and refined. But how much do I know her? I’m afraid she wasn’t sweet like the other, who left me on my own to discover or to waddle desperately trying to seek something as on the floor I hope to swim and laid there I crave to die, alone… alone… and alone once more, pierced with the arrow of Cupid, but left alone to struggle with such love. Oh I’m a drake, or much more, a pauper. But I would dare to be a flying horse trying to shape destiny. Long live Pegasus, seek for such love time deprives of you. It seems I would once more celebrate Valentines Day alone. But elsewhere, friends are there to cheer me up, and though I suffer I long to greet everyone, Happy Valentine! Cheers!
- Jyojyo
