Exposure to Eucharist

FIVE

The Father is well represented in the Son, as Jesus is the image of the invisible God and in him dwelleth all the fullness of the Godhead bodily. Many times Jesus explains things in figures of speech. Likewise he desires to say in the time determined by him that he will tell us clearly of the Father.

Thus, the hour is come that Jesus has to tell of his Father not in figures of speech but in clear terms, with the blessing of the Father as he asks of it from him. As the Father himself loves us, he speaks in the churches through messages coming from the Holy Spirit because the Father himself loves us.

Jesus said, “I came from the Father and have come into the world, now I am leaving the world and going back to the Father (John 16:28). This he proclaimed for the Apostles then believed that he came from God. He said that the Father is in him, and he was in the Father. We may picture out in this statement that Jesus was not only conceived with the spirit of the Father dwelling in him, but he was the image that is enthroned in God since the beginning.

From this pattern of him being the figure, it did become possible for the Father to create Adam, even pattern seraphs and cherubim in the image of Jesus. Jesus is the Alpha, he is the source of all even life. He was in the Father since the beginning being the form from which angels and Adam was formed after. Thus the Father also dwelt in him in his humanity as the Spirit for the Father is in him.

God is without form being a pure act and a pure Spirit, but with Jesus, as the outline of the things to come, even things unseen gave birth to a form, from which out of it Adam was patterned and with God’s own breath, Adam gain life. It is also the same breath of the Father that is taken from us when we expire.

We did not exist in this world if not for the breath of God, which he gave Adam. As it is passed from generation to generation, it is the same breath of the Father that we carry in us as we are gifted with life. The air coming from the mouth of God and our life received is one and the same. It did become possible for God to have a mouth because Jesus was with God (John 1:1) Furthermore; the dwelling of the Holy Spirit only sharpens existence of this life with God.

The speaking in tongues on the other hand is a gift, and one among those gifts if we are to obtain virtue by the Spirit of God. Likewise, we need to be born again of the Spirit and not just of water (John 3:5) with these as prerequisites to salvation. With the acceptance of Jesus as our Lord and Savior believing that he will save us, surrendering our sins to him through confession, we are marked with the blood of the Lamb being Gentiles that are once denied of salvation but are now inheritors to the Kingdom in heaven.

Many years did passed that although just in rare occurrences, I still attend mass; I did not have confession or communion. I don’t want to pass my pain to others even to the priests. In those times, I even have a hard time making the sign of the cross. As I remember from my Rector in Franciscan Conventual, making the sign of the cross is well appreciated if it comes from the heart.

So he taught me the proper way of making the sign of the cross and the genuflecting doing it several times along with me until I almost perfected it. In genuflecting, right knee touches the left feet holding with a single or both hands the left knee.

Very much later with inspiration from a priest in Antique, I associate the sign of the cross with these words: “In clearness of mind with the wisdom that God bore in my heart, having the burden for souls which I carry in my shoulders. Amen.” As a result, I was able to make the sign of the cross without thinking that in the cross, Jesus is condemned.

With the cross, death of Christ becomes fresh every time bearing in mind that with my sins and that of others, Jesus was nailed to the cross. Several times in my manifestations, I did want to avenge my Master’s death, but as I am healed, I think of the empty tomb and a word in my heart did I sense that with the resurrection of Jesus, I too arose new and purified with me receiving of the gift of the Holy Spirit.

But it is not easy forgetting things with the pain I bear in my heart that I grieve sobbing loudly after a slain upon the exposure to the Blessed Sacrament as the host is raised as in my grief, I in similar instances, had cried unmindful of the people around. So I confide my sins to the Bishop and he was kind enough to give me an absolution for the sins I’ve committed. After further confessions to many other priests, my feet became resolute that I no longer fall to the floor.

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

TOPIC TITLE:

 

Did God Manifest in Flesh?

 

SUB-TITLE: Faith, Hope and Love

 

1. Kindly explain the nature of the
        Deity of Jesus.

1a.
His being the Word made flesh?

1b.
His relation to the Father?

1c.
His being conceived of the Holy Ghost?

 

2. What part does Jesus play in his
        role in the Trinity?

2a.
Which role does he play in three persons?

2b.
His being God the Son?

2c.
His being Son of God? Explain.

 

3. In Jesus being conceived of the
        Holy Spirit, what role does

Mary
play?

 

4. How does Mary differ from Jesus and
        in what way they are

similar?

4a.
Her being the Immaculate Conception?

4b.
Her being the new Eve?

4c.
And Jesus being the new Adam?

 

5. How does “I and My Father are one”
        differ from “I and My

Father
are of one accord?”

 

6. Explain: “In the beginning was the
        Word, and the Word was

with
God, and the Word was God. And the Word was made

flesh
and dwelt among us.” Explain in the way you understand it.

 

7. How do you understand this
        statement: “Jesus was completely human yet absolutely Divine.”

7a.
His being of 100% Divinity?

7b.
His being of 100% humanity?

 

8. Explain the query: Who is the I AM
        of the Old Testament?

8a.
Of the New Testament?

8b.
In what way does these two questions differ?

 

9. What role does these that follow
        play in the story of God or gods? Explain how do you understand these?

9a.
Patrology?

9b.
Christology?

9c.
Mariology?

 

10. What does the story of the Sun god
         named “Sol” has to do

with
the calendar birth of Jesus?

 

11. What month did Jesus actually died?
         The month he was

born
according to the early Christian doctrines?

 

12. How do you understand these:

JEHOVAH,
OUR STRENGTH AND OUR SONG?

12a.
Its relation to the name of the Father?

12b.
Its role in Jesus?

 

13. What is the relation of the story
         of Noah’s

    Ark

         play in the

caughting
up of the saints or rapture?

 

14. With whom was the Father talking to
         when He said, “Let us

create
man according to our own image and likeness?

 

15. Was the bird and the voice in the
         baptism of Jesus by John

the
Baptist completely separated from the Son, or is it a sign to whom (the bird,
then the voice)?

 

16. Is Christ beside the Father before
         God created the world?

Explain
your answer.

 

17. How does Christ’s being man and
         Jesus being God

become
different from the nature of Peter who being man also brought back Euticus to
life from being dead when he fall from the roof?

17a.
With Peter doing this miracle and other miracles yet

remain
man?

 

18. State your opinion in this
         argument: “There is no co-creator

that
the Father picks as helpmate when he created the world and all the things in
it?

 

19. When God created the world, is He
         with the Son and the

Holy
Spirit, or with the seraphs and querubims? Support

your
stand.

 

 20.How will Jesus merge man and God being
the mediator?

 

21. Is Jesus Christ the Creator or the
         creature? Explain your

answer.

 

22.How
does Jesus became the first born of all creatures?

 

 23.Explain this statement: “Father, the
hour is come:

  glorify
the Son that thy Son also may glorify thee.”

 

 24.Explain further: “And this is life
eternal, that they might

 know thee the only God, and Jesus
Christ whom thou

 has sent.”

 

 25.In the light of the truth written in
the Holy Scripture,

 man did not evolve from being an
animal. Explain.

 

 26.Man does not belong to what we call the
animal kingdom.

 Explain.

 

 27.In what else does God want man to be
like Him?

 In uprightness and holiness?
Explain.

 

 28.What came to man’s life that made him no
better off

 than an animal? Explain: Death came
to man’s life.

 

 29.How can man who has sinned become in
God’s image

 and thereby be saved?

 

 30.How does Jesus maintain to be in God’s
image? How

 does Christ being in God’s image
prove that he is a man?

 

 31. How can man be conformed to the image
of Christ?

 

 32. Thus, in order for man to be in the
image of Christ

 and of God, he needs to be a member
of the Church that is

 the body of Christ. Why? Explain
what you believe.

 

 33. In heaven, there is no more death,
grief, crying or pain.

 Explain.

 

 34. Are you worshipping the true God? In
what way? Support

 your answer.

 

 35. Worship the Lord with gladness; come
before him with

 joyful songs. Know that the Lord is
good. It is he who made

 us, and we are his; we are his
people the sheep of his

 Pasture. Elaborate your stand in
these statements.

 

 36. Should man believe in many gods
manifested in myriads

 of form or in only one God? Who is
the One God?

 

 37. When God speaks, he alone is speaking?
How does this

 statement apply to Jesus who
acknowledged that there is

 the one that sent him?

 

 38. But the Lord is the only true God, the
living God. He is

 the everlasting King. Explain.

 

 39. Have we not all one Father? Have not One
God created us?

 Explain your stand in this verse.

 

 40. Answer the question of Jesus:

 You like to receive praise from one
another, but you do

 not try win praise from the one who
alone is God, how

 then can you believe me?

 

 41. Is worshipping God different from true
worship not a

 true worship at all? How do you
worship God and what is

 true worship as you are taught in
your religion?

 

 42.Does the “I AM” statement of Jesus in
John 8:58 prove

 that he is God? Explain.

 

 43.What is “ego eimi” or I AM, and how does
this apply to

 Jesus?

 

 44. Is Jesus the God who said “I AM” in
Exodus 3:14? Prove

 your answer.

 

 45. What was he affirming in this verse?

 

 46. Jesus was foreordained by God even
before the foundation  

 of the world. Explain.

 

 47. Does the above statement prove that
Jesus is the same God

 who spoke in the Old Testament?
Support your answer.

 

 48. Does the verse above make Jesus qualify
also as the God of

 the Old testament because he uttered
what God declared

 in Exodus 3:14?

 

 49. Is it true that Jesus is the Jehovah who
spoke in Exodus

3:14?
How?

 

 50. Is there such thing in the Bible as
Jesus who is the servant

 of Jesus? State your personal reason
or explain your

 answer.

 

 51. Paraphrase and explain this
Philosophical statement:

 Through constant love of the Word
which is an act,

 did it made possible for the Father
to have Jesus as

 part of the Trinity, and does this
make the Holy Spirit

 an active force? Explain.

 

 52. Act follows being. How does the three
person of the

 Godhead become part of either of the
two or both?

 

 53. God is incomprehensible through the
fullness of being.

 Everything also is not the fullness
as all came from

 being. Explain.

 

 54. Explain the essence of God in the
statement “God is

 IPSUM ESSE (BEING).

 

 55. What are the attributes that explain the
simplicity of

 God as different from his being complicated?

 

 56. God is God. Based from simplicity, we
conclude that

 God is not a body nor corporeal. God
cannot walk.

 God is pure act. God is Spirit. How
does Jesus become

 God?

 

 57. What happens when the divinity is
different from the

 act of existence of God?

 

 58. What will happen to us if we are
nothing without Christ’s

 humanity as its relevance also to
the divinity of Jesus?

 

 59. God is supreme unity. The essence of
God and the

 existence of God are one and the
same. In God there is

 perfect unity. He is what he is.
Explain.

 

 60. What role is Jesus playing in the
existence of God?

 

 61. God is transcendent to that of the
world, distinct from

 it and infinitely more perfect. We
are part of creation.

 Where does Jesus fit-in in this
statement? Explain

 your answer.

 

 62. How should God be loved?

 

 63. What can you contribute to help man to
be saved? In

 the way you understand, what are the
prerequisites

 to salvation?

 

 64. What was your personal belief in the
way you regard

 God or Jesus?

 

 65. What are your suggestions for others to
perform a true

 worship? What is your idea of true
worship?

 

 66. What role do you play in loving your
neighbor? What

 are the things that arise in your
mind on how can you help

 your neighbor to be saved?

 

Questions prepared
by:

 

JYOTISMAN NEARU
UPENDRA

(i.e. JOSE CONSTANTE I.
NARTATEZ)

 

  

 

Salt to the earth

 

FOUR

 

The
scripture says: “In that day a man shall cast his idols of silver, and his
idols of gold which they made each one for himself to worship, to the
moles and to the bats; To go into the tops of the ragged rocks, for the fear of
the Lord, and for the glory of his majesty, when he ariseth to shake terribly
the earth.”

 

I
was once against the worship before graven images or what Catholics refer to as
Holy Images. But my understanding was opened. Before as the early Christian
doctrines say, there was no image or picture in the Church. But priests and
theologians have this problem of how to educate the people. A little later,
there was the cross but no figure of Man crucified.

 

I
AM not distracted by the image of Jesus fastened on the crosses. Very much
later I have reconciled myself to the crucifix, though I don’t want to wear it
as if an amulet. The power of God in my heart is more than enough. He taught me
to be humble though strange was my feeling how I am to bear this man that I AM.

 

I’m
not a double of Christ nor am I a replica of his humanity. No, I do not aspire
to be one. One thing that makes me write I AM in bold letters is for the sake
of poetic appearance. It does not say that I be God possessing yoga powers.
That acclamation would make me a Devil. I cannot repeat what Lucifer had done.

 

I
step on foot though at times, I seem to alight on air as I walk. When my aura
shines, no one can look me straight to the eyes in longer seconds. In fact I
look at up to five persons without twinkle. But I’m relaxed now, as I have the
smile, I capture men and women, boys and girls through the eyes that make them
also smile back at me.

 

I
try to be firm on the ground, accepting fully the fullness of my humanity and
human to fix to myself that I am a man, low in nature and submissive to God. I
never elevated myself except for the glory of God through scripture texts that
I may be a light and a salt to the earth.

 

Though my lips have the lust, I only want to steal every man’s
heart, and yes, women too. I want to give them inner joy and be remembered by
them. I could not live without company in Brotherhood. They are to me, my all!
Hence, I count them as friends. As it is prophesied, I too receive scars all
over me that I may be beautiful like Jesus.

 

But
it is not well with the wicked people. They stabbed me on the back to add to my
cross multiplying my oppression. They insulted me, they chastise me, they let
be bear heavier load. I can’t do but accept and ignore. They think I am mad or
worse psychotic! They have no pity on me suffering from insomnia because my chakras
erupted as my kundalini rose up. They treat me as nothing. They
desecrate my person.

 

Anyway,
they still remained as those I love and shall not forget. They are my babies
that mothers won’t forget. I have carved them in the palm of my hand. I take
them to my heart and embrace them, though I’m holding nothing but air. This is
perhaps why I had been friendlier with men.

 

I
created a new big seminary out of the world, all men and little women. More
boys and some girls. I wrote for their love letters, which they send to the
girls they love and wanted to be their girlfriend. I’ve been blamed for early
marriages or pregnancy as early as third year high school.

 

Is
it my fault to have much love in my heart? To count them as my little ones? I
pray I am not guilty! But these people are my children. They are the flock that
Jesus wants to give to me. I ask forgiveness from the parents for teaching the
young to express themselves.

 

Furthermore,
I taught them how to write poems, they learned from me or they received poems I
made at random. I bought stationeries in bundles and let them fall in line
doing what they want from me. And I even gave my body, soul and spirit, that I
may not be different from the stars that form the constellation.

 

So
I’m not only scarred but also dirty. I have hands not made of gold but wet with
blood. Yet, I become like that of the tax collector before the Pharisee,
accepting my sins and in both knees plead for mercy to my God. And he took me
to His arms, as he was a Samaritan man. Likewise, he cured my disease and, he
became my healer casting out the demons from my body.

 

As
a result, I was set free though with feet still firm on the ground and never did
sin again making my heart a vessel of peace and acceptance. I did rise after my
fall yet dwelt still with sinners that I might win them unto holiness. Though I
strike as of a double edge sword with the Word, I readily hug them to my breast
and never leave them.

 

Yet,
I remain a man or Man, it doesn’t matter. Though I’m in complete union with my
God, I’m purely human still tempted yet do not succumb to it. And God knows how
to handle my temptations with me overcoming these. He protects me with a helmet
of salvation. He shields me from further pain and makes his cross as a barrier.

 

I
never did live empty anymore but continue to hunger that I may sip the endless
body of water in the ocean of love and affirmations.

 

-Jyotisman
Nearu Upendra

 

 

 

 

Wacky body of water

 

THREE

 

I was alone in the room in fray with the
altruism that was surging deep inside me. I cannot do but to let it out, to
pour it down my belly for the allurement is so brawny. Then I think about God,
or let me say Christ, the body, how he was able to fight temptation.

 

Likewise, what happens to his being God
or HIS Deity? Did it exist in communion with his nature as a man? Perhaps, it
could have been difficult for him to merge these two natures and thereby exist
as whole? If you were on my part would you have acceded on where you can both
meet fairly?

 

For me, it would be a very difficult
thing to do? What about on your opinion? As far as I understand, though in
clearness, God is 100% human and 100% Divine, or I say Jesus Christ himself, he
was actually an ordinary man possessing strange powers, human in all sense and
not God.

 

In addition to, the inner self that
grieves and cries out loud as a voice crying in the wilderness that is in the
wacky body of water inside the rock that Moses strikes that water may come out
is nothing but the FATHER or the Spirit of God (Isaiah 11:2). Now you may
perhaps have been enlightened. So somebody here is telling the truth.

 

Beside, who cares about God the Son,
being just a God merely who was in Christ? I do not affirm the doctrine but I
believe in it? You heard it right; hence, that Jesus was God the Son. I don’t
care about that being not in the Bible. Furthermore, I have a hard time
explaining that as of an egg that have a yoke, an egg white and an egg shell,
and you may refer to

St. Augustine

.

 

As a result, God cannot exist without the
Son and the Holy Spirit, nor the Spirit can exist without the Father and the
Son, nor the Son can exist without the Father and the Holy Spirit. Life, Body
and Spirit both go together, they are in complete communion.

 

Thus, we are referring here to the
so-called Trinity, which is not in the Bible as others say, but could be
justified in truth. ACT proceeds BEING. The ACT of the Father being the wacky
water in the desert, who lays down His life for the brethren enduring
crucifixion, did it made possible for Him as the Father to Jesus to make Jesus
being the BEING or the creation as part of the Trinity. Now, is it clear,
CHILDREN?

 

THEREFORE, why are you all in a war when
the three persons of the Godhead are tranquil with each other? Are you more
than God? Why can’t you agree with one another? Or be brothers to all nations?
Is it difficult to set aside your doctrines for just a minute? And pray. And
dwell together?

 

POOR PEOPLE, the WRATH of GOD is upon
you! Cry out now

Jerusalem

and pour out! Repent, worship in Spirit and in truth, and dwell with one
another. Yours are the roses of heaven! Join now to your eloquence, and say
we’re friends even in FRIENDSTER.

 

On the contrary, what makes us busy
bodies and have not yet received the truth that can set you free? It’s before
you, right in front of you! Read and tell! The BIBLE. You are my hiding place O
God. Come to me and never say GOODBYE, being we of one accord.

 

Yet see and look, we are absolutely
different. You are God while I’m just THE MAN. Yet, we are in complete
constellation. You shine like the stars in heaven and I grieve for love. Also,
you are my beginning and end. You are my ALPHA and my OMEGA! My
God, and my LORD, my Saviour.

 

In spite of my weakness, you cover me up,
and you shielded me. To you is the glory, my excrete to Satan! I had a scorpion
and a snake in my tongue, and I speak the truth and I hide nothing. My life is
an open book to the world, as Augustine, and though late have I loved the Lord,
I LOVE HIM DEARLY.

 

O cry out Oh
Jerusalem. Bye-bye Seraphim! I am THE MAN, but I
partake in holding the sun in the palm of my hand. Yet I have no power. My yoga
powers cannot protect me. Yet I pray to God that He spare me, and let this cup
pass by me, that I may not endure what the Master beareth. Roses on feet,
perfumes on my hand and crown of thorns round me.

 

As a result, still I keep speaking, the
Holy Spirit in Words. And not just in tongues. Tranquil as it has been HIS
NATURE. How about YOU? Are you in quiet with your selves? Do you love God as
also me more than these?

 

Who AM I? I’m just the Man, like Edu, but
from my lips flowed the truth that shall slay.

 

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

 

Being the Father

 

TWO

 

I was thinking how I was able to relate
to the holiness of Jesus through the gospel texts. He said: Provide neither
gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purses, Nor scrip for your journey,
neither two coats, neither shoes, not yet staves: for the workman is worthy of
his meat.

 

I happen to talk about these yesterday
as of this date to one who saw me in Boracay. Actually that was already the 2^nd
time of my journey round Boracay then Antique. Boracay is a little more
than a hundred kilometers from our hometown. I did have my pocket but there was
nothing in it, and it was February 14, Valentines day! God told me go,
therefore my child and preach the gospel, and bring nothing with you but your
own self.

 

I went to my optometrist and asked her
if she could assist with the expenses for a National Convention, which is true.
She said, that is far expensive but she could share a Valentine Gift of a
hundred pesos. Then I went to my Godmother to greet her Happy Valentine without
asking for funding this time. She gave me a pen and a souvenir and two hundred
pesos. In my travel before I forgot, I have with me a KJV Gideon brown Bible
with markings in the pages.

 

In the jeepney, with which I travel
along, with the three hundred pesos in my pocket, was my childhood best friend
from STI and his office mate. I was singing gospel songs along the way for
there are only a few of us in the jeepney. At

Caticlan

Port

they boarded separately. A fellow was kind enough to assist me board the boat
by taking my hand. The boat was already full that I had no place to sit so I
stood.

 

Then the Lord said to me through my
heart, “It is time!” I need not ask Him what about for that’s how we
communicate, in simple words. I placed my Bible between my feet and said to
those boarding the boat, “Can I have the floor? Please lend me your ears.” I
could relay the Word even without looking from the Bible, so I started to
convey to those in the motorboat scripture to scripture without stating text’s
numbers. And that’s how God spoke to the people through Me.

 

My last statement was: Repent, for the
Kingdom is at hand. God wants to tell something. He wants to convey and speak
plainly of the Father for Jesus existing since the time in the mountain of the
Lord that freed the Israelites from the bondage of Egypt and was in the
wilderness being the Spirit that then dwelt in the Son (Isaiah 11:2) is the
Father. Then in the loud voice I said, “Jesus is the Father!” Then in front of
them as I avoid looking at these fellows I love and have loved since the beginning,
I grieved. “Lord,” I said, “Why has thou destined to destroy the world, for it
was beautiful. But I could not do anything for I have no hold in Thy power nor
command I can muster.”

 

Teary eyed I hid my face from them. Then
one said, “Jyo, take a sit here beside me for the current of water is strong
and you might fall.” I was thankful that there is one concerned of me, and even
know my name. I remember one time when I was asked of my name, I bursted: “I
don’t even know who I AM, how can I tell you what I do not know?” Of course,
there was only one I AM in John 8:58, and that is Jesus. I am different from
him for He is God.

 

Here I pause for a prayer.

 

My heart is tearing, and my grief is
sore. I don’t know about the nature of God but he opened my eyes as He openeth
their understanding that they might understand the scriptures (Luke 24:45).

 

I cannot continue, pardon me for My
Heart is breaking. That is how I love humanity, all of them regardless of
religions and affiliation, even those that backbite, and stabbed me in the
back. I love the students regardless of identity. I have 503 friends in my
Friendster as of press time. I share the gospel through my Blog in Friendster.

 

I’m like water. Like air. Though I have
washed already, my hands are bloody and my feet waivers. But my mind was sharp
and my heart bore the earth. I am enclosed as I am bare, and I hide nothing to
the world. But the love of my friends filled what I lack. They show me trails
and I followed them. Likewise in the present time, I will show them the way.

 

“Come and See!” Jesus said! And
beginning at Moses and all the prophets, he expounded unto them in all the
scriptures the things concerning himself (Luke 24:27). He sends to them the
promise of His Father till you worship him, and return to your

Jerusalem

.

 

He is coming after me and is preferred
before me, whose shoe’s latchet I am not worthy to unloose (John 1:27). Whoever
drinketh of the water shall thirst again, but the water He gives, in him is the
well that spring from everlasting. Let us pause for silence and prayer.

 

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

 

Till knees hurt

 

 

More than two thousand years ago, there was a Man rumored
as God possessing a strange spirit acclaimed as the spirit of His Father
(Isaiah 11:2), who was born in Bethlehem. He was queer and a bizarre, because he
was conceived of the so called Holy Ghost through a woman, represented as the
woman Israel, that though simple and quiescent, according to stories weaved by
the Franciscan in the doctrines of the contemporary desert fathers was not
conceived in sin by Anna, who was the wife of Joachim.

 

This
woman who bore the child I call as Jessie, was tagged as the Immaculate
Conception, and was a loving cousin to Elizabeth who coincidentally was bearing
in her womb a child who eats locust as his meal and never did taste wine and
called Herodias an adulterer and Herod a thief of his brother’s wife.

 

Thousands
of years after, I was here in the midst of sinners and sinning myself. But my
God is great and he knows how to forgive my sins and take me away from
temptation. A spiritist counted the spirits that was dwelling in me in the time
that I was erratic. Likewise he said, “Six hundred legions of demons.” That is
maybe why they mistake me for a frog prince. Actually they call me mad. I was
the best topic of students’ even teachers; much more the Charismatics till
tongues lengthen.

 

My
God from a distance was watching all these and is a sole witness who believes
to the truth about what I AM and what is my nature. Nobody believes me,
actually there was no one who pays to listen to me except this wholly wooly
Doctor with whom I can relate to her language. I’m only sad that her husband
died recently.

 

As
you can see this Jessie I love, called in the same name by a friend of mine who
is a nun, was in his childhood found preaching in the temple at an early age
answering the questions of priests and doctors. He when found by his father and
mother, declared to them that he was on His Father’s House and they ought not
to bother looking for him.

 

As
you can see, I have a mother too, and a father who loved me much that they took
me to the hospital for treatment, though I feel I’m not sick.

There
I actually have an encounter to Satan, who tried to enter my body as a mirage
of Christ the King was watching me fight Satan. I don’t want to elaborate on
this story for it is still too early to tell about it.

 

Here
I stop, and pause, and feel sad that I don’t want to continue this writing. Who
I am, I’m just a man like Peter and Paul, I did not even have my powers except
my yoga powers which my chakras erupted as my kundalini who twirled bursted. My
adrenalin did rose and I keep talking to my fellow monks about Romnick and
Sheryl who as stars stole the scene like them. That time, I hated the Jesuits,
who to me allegedly were ridiculing the Franciscan of praying before a banana
tree till their knees burst. I have no time for an anting-anting that I
can get from the banana tree. I would prefer watching movies like of Sharon and
Gabby.

 

Here,
I pause for a prayer, that God would take me away from what is worldly. Hence,
my orientation was Franciscan, and my associates are Catholics though I have
Protestant friends, until now I pray the psalms in vespers, and that’s how I
pray. I then by this moment pray for the forgiveness of sins of dwellers of
this earth.

 

Furthermore,
I hated me talking about holy things; the highfiberians would not like this.
So, many times I switch to love and love stories though it pollutes my mind and
heart. There, I can be listened. On the other hand, I enjoy writing about love though
I have no brain but have plenty of charm. Many times, my audiences are women
like Chelsea and Iloveyouhoney and EducatedBitch.

 

Actually,
I fall in love to these women though they know it not, only now perhaps. But
until now, I have no girlfriend, my, at the age of 41. I had girl friends in
the past and our love stories I published in <highfiber>. But here again,
we are drawing away from the story of this so-called Jessie I love, that
allegedly though completely human yet was absolutely Divine. Yes, you hear it
clear. He was God. In him dwelleth the fullness of the Godhead bodily. He is
the image of the invisible God, the first born of all creatures. And it pleased
the Father that in him all the fullness should dwell.

 

Some
of my friends will again be angry with this. But I have no choice, this is my
lot: to tell about God that I may help save souls. But I’m tired already like
Jesus who dispensed his listeners and rested. He was completely human for he
slept in the boat. He was absolutely God for He stills that storm and walks in
water. Who is this Man that even the winds and the rain, and the sea obey him?
He is no other than our God.

 

Here,
I stop again for a prayer.

 

 

-Jyotisman
Nearu Upendra