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God fully loved us that he gave us his only begotten Son that existed with him since the beginning. Jesus said that he is older than Abraham. Likewise this is so, for the Word did not become God but He was God. Being a God before creation, he has a place in the throne of his Father, he being the first born of all creatures. He was God being the Word (John 1:1) that his Father was armed conveying on Jesus for the Son to proclaim the word of the Father as this God said, “Let there be light!” He is our Lord, our Creator and is one with the Father though the Father sent him and is greater than him.

Jesus became the helpmate of the Father in figuring out the things to come. Though the Father has also the power to do things in his own, it became easier for Him to form the world with Jesus becoming the Word since the beginning. In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God (John 1:1). Hence, in the beginning was Jesus, and Jesus were with God, and Jesus was God.

Together with the Spirit, the triune agree as one, though they function differently, they being distinct from each other, but they are in one accord (John 10:30). The Father is not the Son, nor the Holy Spirit. But the name “Jesus” applies to the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit because Jesus is the name of the Godhead.

They are distinguishable but indivisible. They can be distinguished from each other with either one among the three being distinct from each but they cannot be divided for they are One God. It was the spirit of God that moved in the wilderness freeing Abraham from the worship of idols and the Israelites from the bondage of Egypt.

Without Jesus it would not have been in exact accordance for the Father to function in the creation for Jesus being the figure of the things to come become his voice that is one with him, and through Jesus as the Word, light was opened, mountains had shape, trees and plants did grow, animals were created, and man was formed according to the image and likeness of this God giving man God’s own breath. Likewise in the fullness of time the Son was also manifested in human form.

With the love of the Father and the Son, goodness reigned in heaven being the manifestation of the Spirit and it did move upon the face of the waters (Genesis 1:2). And in the time right for God, the Spirit that is hovering in the face of the waters came into being. It was manifested in flesh as Christ. How come that the Devil was there in Eden being the place so holy? Each good has a corresponding opposite force, and evil became in battle with the good. It fought Saint Michael and his angels, and from light being “Lucifer” did it become Satan, the darkness.

To man darkness became the hour of rest, that’s why we are gathered for a prayer in the evening that we may overcome evil. Joined with our family, Catholics gather for a novena or the rosary in the family altar. Though we cannot find our children anymore in the family altar, we can revive this custom. On the seventh day, God rested too having the devil a chance to tempt Eve, and with Eve luring Adam forcing him to eat with the fruit of knowledge of good and evil.

But God is good enough, aware of their nakedness; he did make for Adam and his wife coats of skins, and clothed them. God also clothe the depressed persons with the clearness of mind once they come to him and plead for mercy. It is Jesus himself who said that all power is given unto him in heaven and in earth. He further said, “Go therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.” It follows that the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit is “Jesus”. Hence, Peter said unto the disciples: Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Spirit (Acts 2:38).

Through baptism, we are made whole, and from sins we are revived to health of mind and body healing these, as the Lord builds the temple of his body in three days. Therefore, it is the Eucharist being his own body and blood that becomes our spiritual food, which before many know not. In addition to, with the Eucharist, eyes are opened to the mystery of God, and of the Father, and of our Lord Jesus Christ. For in Jesus, we live, and move, and have our being as his offspring (Acts 17:28).

For this truth, it is the Spirit that guides us, for he shall not speak of himself: but whatsoever he shall hear, that he shall speak: and he will show you things to come. It is Jesus himself speaking to his people who said: “All things that the Father hath are mine (of Jesus): therefore said I, that he shall take of mine, and shall show it unto you (John 16:15).” Of course the Father did choose the body of Jesus to offer unto us, which we now receive through the Eucharist. And with the word of God, we are sanctified being this as source of truth (John 17:17).

Jesus is one with the Father being the co-owner of the kingdom, and is in triune with the Holy Spirit. He conveyed that if you had seen me (Jesus), you have seen the Father. The triune God is in co-existence with each other. They are also co-eternal. Jesus said, “My kingdom is not of this world: If my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight, that I should not be delivered to the Jews (John 18:36).” He also spoke that the world had not known the Father, but he has known the Father, and that he (Jesus) was sent (John 17:25).

The scripture says, in the day destined, a root of Jessie stands as the ensign of the people: to it shall the Gentiles seek: and his rest shall be glorious. And it shall come to pass in that day, that the Lord shall set his hand again the second time to recover the remnant of his people, which shall be left, from Assyria, and from Egypt, and from Pathros, and from Cush, and from Elam, and from Shinar, and from Hamath, and from the islands of the sea. And he shall set up an ensign for the nations… and gather together the dispersed of Judah from the four corners of the earth (Isaiah 11:10-12).

And he did came, Jesus! Likewise, in mercy his throne is established: and once more in the day appointed he shall sit upon it in truth in the tabernacle of David, judging, seeking judgment, and hasting righteousness. Likewise in that day did the Lord of host shall call to weeping, and to mourning, and to baldness, and to girding with sackcloth (Isaiah 22:12).

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

The Father is well represented in the Son, as Jesus is the image of the invisible God and in him dwelled all the fullness of the Godhead bodily. Many times Jesus explains things in figures of speech. Likewise he desires to say in the time determined by him that he will tell us clearly of the Father.

Thus, the hour comes that Jesus has to tell of his Father not in figures of speech but in clear terms, with the blessing of the Father as he asks of it from him. As the Father himself loves us, he speaks in the churches through messages coming from the Holy Spirit because it is the Father’s desire to commune with us.

Jesus said, “I came from the Father and have come into the world, now I am leaving the world and going back to the Father (John 16:28).” This he proclaimed for the Apostles then believed that he came from God. He said that the Father is in him, and he was in the Father. We may picture out in this statement that Jesus was not only conceived with the spirit of the Father dwelling in him, but he was the image that is enthroned in God’s splendor since the beginning.

From this pattern of him being the figure, it did become possible for the Father to create Adam, even pattern seraphs and cherubim in the image of Jesus. Jesus is the Alpha; he is the source of all even life. He was in the Father since the beginning being the form from which angels and Adam was formed after. Thus the Father also dwelt in him in his humanity as the Spirit for the Father is in him.

God is without form being a pure act and a pure Spirit, but with Jesus, as the outline of the things to come, even things unseen gave birth to a form, from which out of it Adam was patterned and with God’s own breath, Adam gain life. It is also the same breath of the Father that is taken from us when we expire.

We did not exist in this world if not for the breath of God, which he gave Adam. As it is passed from generation to generation, it is the same breath of the Father that we carry in us as we are gifted with life. The air coming from the mouth of God and our life received is one and the same. It did become possible for God to have a mouth because Jesus was with God - the Word was with God (John 1:1). Though the Father can speak in his own, being a God himself, Jesus became the voice of the Father since the beginning. Furthermore, the dwelling of the Holy Spirit only sharpens our existence in this life with God.

The speaking in tongues on the other hand is a gift, and one among those gifts if we are to obtain fruits of the Spirit of God. Likewise, we need to be born again of the Spirit and not just of water (John 3:5) with these as prerequisites to salvation. The Catholic doctrine claims that this is fulfilled in infant baptism while Protestant churches believe in baptism by immersion. With the acceptance of Jesus as our Lord and Savior believing that he will save us, surrendering our sins to him through confession, we are marked with the blood of the Lamb being Gentiles that are once denied of salvation but are now inheritors to the Kingdom in heaven.

Many years did passed that although just in rare occurrences, I still attend mass; I did not have confession or communion. I don’t want to pass my pain to others even to the priests. In those times, I even have a hard time making the sign of the cross. As I remember from my Rector in Franciscan Conventual, making the sign of the cross is well appreciated if it comes from the heart.

So he taught me the proper way of making the sign of the cross and the genuflecting doing it several times along with me until I almost perfected it. In genuflecting, right knee touches the left feet holding with a single or both hands the left knee.

Very much later with inspiration from a priest in Antique, I associated the sign of the cross with these words: “In clearness of mind with the wisdom that God bore in my heart, having the burden for souls which I carry in my shoulders. Amen.” As a result, I was able to make the sign of the cross without thinking that in the cross, Jesus is condemned.

Likewise, another priest said that with the fingers in the forehead, we affirm our faith; with fingers in the heart, we affirm our love to God and our fellowmen; and with the fingers on the shoulders, we reiterate our part in bearing the burden in our role to save mankind.

With the cross, death of Christ becomes fresh every time bearing in mind that with my sins and that of others, Jesus was nailed to the cross. Several times in my manifestations, I did want to avenge my Master’s death, but as I am healed, I think of the empty tomb and a word in my heart did I sense that with the resurrection of Jesus, I too arose new and purified with me receiving of the gift of the Holy Spirit.

But it is not easy forgetting things with the pain I bear in my heart that I grieved sobbing loudly after a slain upon my exposure to the Blessed Sacrament as the host is raised as in my grief, I in similar instances, had cried unmindful of the people around. So I confide my sins to the Bishop and he was kind enough to give me an absolution for the sins I’ve committed. After further confessions to many other priests, my feet became resolute that I no longer fall to the floor.

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

The scripture says: “On that day men will throw to the moles and the bats the idols of silver and gold which they made for worship. They go into caverns in the rocks and into crevices in the cliffs, from the terror of the Lord and the splendor of his majesty when he arises to overawe the earth (Isaiah 2:20-21).”

I was once against the worship before graven images or what Catholics refer to as Holy Images. But my understanding was opened. Before as the early Christian doctrines say, there was no image or picture in the Church. But priests and theologians have this problem of how to educate the people. A little later, there was the cross but no figure of Man crucified.

I am not distracted by the image of Jesus fastened on the crosses. Very much later I have reconciled myself to the crucifix, though I don’t want to wear it as if an amulet. The power of God in my heart is more than enough. He taught me how to be humble though strange was my feeling how I am to bear this man that I am.

I’m not a double of Christ nor am I a replica of his humanity associating myself with the word I am as in “I am the man”. It does not say that I be God benefiting from what results to my experience of yoga. That acclamation would make me a Devil. I cannot repeat what Lucifer had done.

I step firm on the ground but do not deny that at times, I seem to walk alighting on air. When my aura shines, no one can look at me straight to the eyes in longer seconds. In fact I look at up to five persons without twinkle. But I’m relaxed now, as I have the smile, I capture men and women, boys and girls alike through the eyes that make them also smile back at me.

I try to be firm on the ground, accepting fully the fullness of my humanity and human to fix to myself that I am a man, low in nature and must submit to God. Though my lips have the lust at times, I only want to steal my male friends’ heart. I want to give them inner joy and be remembered by them. I could not live without company in Brotherhood. They are to me, my all! Hence, I count them as friends. As it is prophesied, I too receive scars all over me that my wounds would not much differ from the bruises of Jesus, he being beautiful with his scars.

But it is not well with these people who do not understand me. They stabbed me on the back to add to my cross multiplying my oppression. They insulted me and they chastised me. I can’t do but accept and ignore. They think I am mad or worse psychotic! They have no pity on me suffering from insomnia because my chakras erupted as my kundalini rose up. They treat me as nothing. They desecrated my person. Being still bitter at the progress of this writing made me realize that I am ignorant of wisdom until now.

Perhaps when the time comes that I’ve fully accepted the things that happened in my life and learned to forget these and forgive those who continue to offend me, only then that the wound would heal. But how can I forget if I’m continually reminded through the lashes of the tongues from people who rarely know me and likewise fail to give me a chance to live my life peacefully, free from the scrutiny of these people who cling to what happened in the past and are blind to the good things I’ve done and the healing I’ve obtained.

Anyway, they still remained as those I love and shall not forget. They are my babies that mothers won’t forget. I have carved them in the palm of my hand. I take them to my heart and embrace them, though I’m holding nothing but air. This is perhaps why I had been friendlier with men.

I created a new big seminary out of the world, all men and little women. The group I created composes of more boys and some girls. With the manifestations that the Father has permitted to happen to me, I wrote for their love letters, which they send to the girls they love and wanted to be their girlfriends. I’ve been blamed for early marriages or pregnancy as early as third year high school.

Is it my fault to have much love in my heart, since I count them as my little ones? I’m afraid they feel that I’m responsible for their sons and daughters’ early marriages. These people are the flock that Jesus has given for me to watch after, but what had I done? I led them to early relationships. I ask forgiveness from the parents for teaching the young to express themselves.

I only wanted to share my love and talent by teaching them how to make love letters and write poems. They learned from me or they received poems I made at random. I bought stationeries in bundles and let them fall in line doing what they want from me. And I even gave my heart, soul and spirit, that I may not be different from the stars that form the constellation.

So I’m not only scarred but likewise I accept I’m also dirty. I have hands not made of gold but wet with blood. Yet, I become like that of the tax collector before the Pharisee, accepting my sins and in both knees plead for mercy to my God. And he took me to His arms, as he was a Samaritan man. Likewise, he cured my disease and, he became my healer casting out the demons from my body.

As a result, I was set free though with feet still firm on the ground and never did sin gravely again making my heart a vessel of peace and acceptance. I did rise after my fall yet dwelt still with sinners that I might win them unto holiness. Though I strike as of a double-edged sword with the Word, I readily hugged them to my breast though in imagination, and never left them.

Yet, I remain fully human in a different identity with God aware that in as much as I try to depart from sin, I’m yet tempted to the lure of the flesh. But God knows how to handle my temptations with me overcoming these. He protects me with a helmet of salvation. He shields me from further pain and makes his cross as a barricade against forces of evil.

I never did live empty anymore but continue to hunger that I may sip the endless body of water in the ocean of love and affirmations.

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

One evening, as I was alone in the room, I was in fray with the altruism that was surging deep inside me. I cannot do but to let it out, to pour it down my belly for the allurement is so brawny. Then I think about God, or let me say Christ, his being human, how he was able to fight temptation.

Likewise, what happens to his being God or his Deity? Did it exist in communion with his nature as a man? Perhaps, it could have been difficult for him to merge these two natures and thereby exist as whole. If you were on my part, what would you do to resolve this puzzle? Did his being God existed tranquil enough together with his being human?

For me, this would be a deep thing to assess upon. What about on your opinion? As far as I understand, though in clearness, God is 100% human and 100% Divine, or I say Jesus Christ himself, he was actually an ordinary man possessing strange powers, human in all sense with his existence as God completely transcendent from his being human. However, he acknowledges the power from the Father and giving God the glory, Jesus was able to make miracles.

In addition to, the inner self in Jesus that grieves and cries out loud as a voice crying in the wilderness that is in the wacky body of water inside the rock that Moses strikes that water may come out is nothing but the FATHER or the Spirit of God (Isaiah 11:2). I pray and hope this could help us go deeper into the nature of Jesus as you may help me too in this puzzle. So perhaps others too may have their point in trying to explain the truth.

Besides, you can help me explain the theory of his being God the Son, being our God merely present in Christ. It would be natural for me to ask, and I need to deepen on this fact. Furthermore, I have a hard time explaining referring the Trinity to an egg that have an egg yoke, an egg white and an eggshell, with the three persons of the Godhead completely different from each other but is One God.

As we may conclude, God cannot exist without the Son and the Holy Spirit, nor the Spirit can exist without the Father and the Son, nor the Son can exist without the Father and the Holy Spirit. Life, Body and Spirit both go together, they are in complete communion.

Thus, we are referring here to the so-called Trinity, which is not in the Bible as others say, but could be justified in truth. ACT proceeds BEING. The ACT of the Father being the wacky water in the desert, which lays down His life for the brethren with the body where his spirit dwelt, did endure crucifixion, made it possible for Him as the Father to Jesus to make Jesus Christ considering him the BEING or the creation as part of the Trinity.

I hope this humble analysis can help. But perhaps you may have some other ideas. It follows also that through the love of the Father and the Son; an active force did spring forth making it the third person of the Trinity, which is the Holy Spirit.

I beg that we come together and convene brotherly just as the three persons of the Godhead are tranquil with each other. We ought to work together for the betterment of churches, being all formed in the image of Christ. We need to work as the flock of Christ affirming each other. We need to taste and see the goodness of the Lord, as we become brothers to all nations.

Let us pray that God would open our understanding that we may understand the scriptures. We need to sense where we can be guided and in what factor can our thoughts find enlightenment. We may find light in us if we work together. As all of us may realize, we have the Bible as the source of truth. We see that the prophets had been in one accord with God. So there is also a need for us to commune together taking part in what the Lord wants for us.

As we see figuring it out, we are the children of God having different existence from what Jesus have experienced. We in our existence are mere human beings though in a way we may grasp, we are also in constellation with the Master. Jesus shines like the stars in heaven and we grieve for love. He is our beginning and end, our Alpha and our Omega, our God, and our Lord, our Savior.

In spite of our weakness, God preserves us whole; as he had been there to cover us as seem with wings keeping us safe against evil. We need to be careful as not to hurt our brothers, just as we use to be meek like before when the Holy Spirit we received in baptism are not yet choked. We are here to encourage each other just like Jesus who having bruised and wounded still become an affirming person and was in the cross a plus sign.

We are human and are sinful but God gives us a chance to be renewed as we read his comforting words. Unlike our old self that was blinded with hatred for the oppression we received, we need to consider what others feel with the words we speak. Even Christ with his heart of flesh had chosen to be likened in the form of a servant, even becoming like lamb silent before its Shearer.

Though we are completely nothing as we came from nothing, we partake with the work of God, thinking what good we can do, looking not on things transcendent from us but on that which are acceptable and realistic. God can change us with the touch of the Holy Spirit that we may have the newness of mind and disposition.

Life is but in communion with others. As a priest has said during the Mass, we live with others that when we go to heaven, we are not alone for we take other people with us. Our fellows are also influenced by the way we are disposed that we become responsible if they stumble because of us.

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

I was thinking how I was able to relate to the holiness of Jesus through the gospel texts. He said: Provide neither gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purses, Nor scrip for your journey, neither two coats, neither shoes, not yet staves: for the workman is worthy of his meat.

I happen to talk about these yesterday as of this date to one who saw me in Boracay. Actually that was already the 2^nd time of my journey round Boracay then Antique. Boracay is a little more than a hundred kilometers from our hometown. I did have my pocket but there was nothing in it, and it was February 14, Valentines day! God told me go, therefore my child and preach the gospel, and bring nothing with you but your own self.

I went to my optometrist and asked her if she could assist with the expenses for a National Convention, which is true. She said, that is far expensive but she could share a Valentine Gift of a hundred pesos. Then I went to my Godmother to greet her Happy Valentine without asking for anything this time. She gave me a pen and a souvenir and two hundred pesos. In my travel before I forget, I have with me a KJV Gideon brown Bible with markings in the pages.

In the jeepney, with which I travel along, with the three hundred pesos in my pocket, was my childhood best friend from STI and his office mate. I was singing gospel songs along the way for there are only a few of us in the jeepney. At Caticlan Port they boarded separately. A fellow was kind enough to assist me board the motorboat by taking my hand. The boat was already full that I had no place to sit so I stood.

Then the Lord said to me through my heart, “It is time!” I need not ask Him what about for that’s how we communicate, in simple words. I placed my Bible between my feet and said to those boarding the boat, “Can I have the floor? Please lend me your ears.” I could relay the Word even without looking from the Bible, so I started to convey to those in the motorboat scripture to scripture without stating text’s numbers. And that’s how God spoke to the people through me.

My last statement was: Repent, for the Kingdom is at hand. God wants to tell something. He wants to convey and speak plainly of the Father for Jesus existing since the time in the mountain of the Lord that freed the Israelites from the bondage of Egypt and was in the wilderness being the Spirit that then dwelt in the Son (Isaiah 11:2) is the Father. Then in the loud voice I said, “Jesus is the Father!” Of course it follows that he is also the Son and the Holy Spirit. Then in front of them as I avoid looking at these fellows I love and have loved since my affection for humanity grows in my heart, I grieved: “Lord,” I said, “why has thou destined to destroy the world, for it is beautiful? But I could not do anything for I have no hold in Thy power nor command I can muster.”

Teary eyed I hid my face from them. Then one said, “Jyo, take a sit here beside me for the current of water is strong and you might fall.” I was thankful that there is one concerned of me, and even know my name. I remember one time when I was asked of my name, I burst: “I don’t even know what role do I play in this journey, how can I tell you of what I do not know?” Of course, there was only one I AM in John 8:58, and that is Jesus. I am completely different from him for he is God.

Here I pause for a prayer.

My heart is tearing, and my grief is sore. I don’t know about the nature of God but he opened my eyes as He openeth their understanding that they might understand the scriptures (Luke 24:45).

I cannot continue, pardon me for my heart is breaking. That is how I love humanity, all of them regardless of religions and affiliations, even those that backbite, and stabbed me in the back. I love the students regardless of identity. I have 532 friends in my Friendster as of press time. I share the gospel through my Blog in Friendster.

I’m like water. Like air. Though I have washed already, my hands are bloody and my feet waivers. But my mind is sharp and in my heart did I bear love for the inhabitants of this earth. I am enclosed as I am bare, and I expose myself to the world. But likewise, the love of my friends filled what I lack. They show me trails and I followed them. Nevertheless in the present time, I will show them the way.

“Come and See!” In my mind, I seem to hear Jesus saying! And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, he expounded unto them in all the scriptures the things concerning him (Luke 24:27). He sends to these people the promise of his Father till they worship him, and return to their Jerusalem.

Like John the Baptist who comes before Jesus was born, we can also say that our Lord is preferred before us, whose shoe’s latchet we are not worthy to unloose (John 1:27). Whoever drinketh of the water shall thirst again, but the water He gives, in him is the well that springs from everlasting. Let us pause for silence and prayer.

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra

 

More than two thousand years ago, there
was a Man rumored as God possessing a strange spirit acclaimed as the spirit of
his Father (Isaiah 11:2), with the former being born in

Bethlehem

. He was queer and bizarre, because
he was conceived of the so called Holy Ghost through a woman, represented as
the woman Israel, that though simple and quiescent, according to stories weaved
by the Franciscans in the doctrines of the contemporary desert fathers was not
conceived in sin by Anna, who was the wife of Joachim.

 

This woman who bore the child I may
call as Jessie, was tagged as the Immaculate Conception, and was a loving
cousin to

Elizabeth

who coincidentally was bearing in her womb a child who eats locust as his meal and
never did taste wine and called Herodias an adulteress and Herod a thief of his
brother’s wife.

 

Thousands of years after, I in my own
separate existence found myself here in the midst of sinners and was sinful
like them. But my God is great and he knows the proper time for him to take me
away from my misery. Besides, I still have to endure with the desert period of
my life.

 

A spiritist counted the spirits that
was dwelling in me in the time that I was erratic. Likewise he said, “Six
hundred legions of demons.” That is maybe why they mistake me for a frog
prince. Actually they call me mad. I was the best topic of students, even
teachers, and it was the same with a few of other more people, while at the
same time loved by many.

 

My God from a distance was watching all
these and is a sole witness who believes to the truth about what I feel and
what I am enduring. Nobody understands me. Actually there was no one who pays
to listen to me except this wholly wooly Doctor with whom I can relate to her
language. To others I was only a laughing stock or an object of ridicule except
for those who enjoyed my company, those who had been intimate with me.

 

I only recourse to this Jessie I love,
called in the same name by a friend of mine who is a nun, who in his childhood
was found preaching in the temple at an early age answering the questions of
teachers and doctors. He when found by his father and mother, declared to them
that he was on his Father’s House and they ought not to bother looking for him.

 

As you can see, I have a mother too,
and a father who loved me much that they took me to the hospital for treatment,
though I feel I’m not sick.

There I actually have an encounter
against Satan, who tried to enter my body as a mirage of Christ the King was
watching me fight Satan. I don’t want to elaborate on this story for it is
still too early to tell about it.

 

Here I stop, and pause, and feel sad
that I don’t want to continue this writing. Who am I? I’m just an ordinary man.
I did not even have my yoga powers, except that my mind was opened to some
visions because my chakras erupted, as my kundalini that twirled
burst. My adrenalin did rose and I keep talking with my fellow monks about
Romnick and Sheryl who as stars stole the scene like them. That time, I hated
the Jesuits, who to me allegedly were ridiculing the Franciscans of praying
before a banana tree till their knees hurt. I have no time for an anting-anting
that I can get from the banana tree. I would prefer watching movies like that
of Sharon and Gabby.

 

Here, I pause for a prayer, that God
would take me away from what is worldly. Hence, my orientation was Franciscan,
and my associates are Catholics though I have Protestant friends, until now I
pray the psalms in vespers, and that’s how I pray. I then by this moment pray
for the forgiveness of sins of dwellers of this earth.

 

Furthermore, some hated me talking
about holy things; the highfiberians would not like this. So, many times I
switch to love and love stories though it pollutes my mind and heart. There, I
can be listened. On the other hand, I enjoy writing about love though I have no
brain but have plenty of charm. Many times, my audiences are women like Chelsea
and Ilovehoney07 and EducatedBitch.

 

Actually, I fall in love to these women
though they know it not, only now perhaps. But until now, I have no girlfriend,
my, at the age of 42. I had girl friends in the past and our love stories I
published in the old files of www.highfiber.org.
But here again, we are drawing away from the story of this so-called Jessie I
love, that allegedly though completely human yet was absolutely Divine. Yes,
you hear it clear. He was God. In him dwelleth the fullness of the Godhead
bodily. He is the image of the invisible God, the first born of all creatures.
And it pleased the Father that in him all the fullness should dwell.

 

Some of my friends will again be angry
with this. But I have no choice, this is my lot: to tell about God that I may
help save souls. But I’m tired already like Jesus who dispensed his listeners
and rested. He was completely human for he slept in the boat. He was absolutely
God for he stills the storm and walks in water. Who is this Man that even the
winds and the rain, and the sea obey him? He is no other than our God.

 

Here, I stop again for a prayer.

 

 

-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra