Ball of fire
I can’t sleep because… God may
have a plan. I opened the Bible and my eyes pierced the words as if written
afresh. It says in Isaiah 8:10-NAB: ‘Form a plan, and it shall be thwarted;
make a resolve, and it shall not be carried out, for “With us is God!”’
The Lord gives me courage that I may tell everything… I prayed,
‘your words is more than enough my Lord.’… I’m consumed. And stood still. I
will never forget this evening when the Lord visited me. He asked me to take
courage for he will guide me, as the plan is sought.
It is a beautiful evening, for the Divine Mercy manifest a mirage.
I hope he could cure me. I offered a decade for one suffering cancer.
Teary-eyed, I was blocked. Thoughts, though, continue to seep in. “St. Jude
Thaddeus help me,” was my prayer.
Actually, I’ve taken two shots of Tanduay with Extra Joss, which
the youth offered to me, as I gave them assorted candies worth ten pesos. God
has a plan. And it is revealed to me as a body in-filled. Tomorrow I hope the
youth who took courage to say yes to our invitation for Charismatic will attend
the prayer meeting in form of praise, worship and talk.
Jesus became the Trinity for as
he was one with the Father, I was one with the youth, and I seem to copy their
form looking young too. I’m becoming more a man that has the courage to speak
out even from rooftops, and reveal the nature of God as the Father Holy Ghost
that in-filled the Son and they share bodily form.
God is good as He manifest in Triune. He is wiser above all,
having revealed himself through Solomon and behold, one is more than Solomon,
Jesus. 2 Corinthians 3:17-18 says, “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and
where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom…” and it follows, “All of us
gazing with unveiled face on the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into
the image from glory to glory, as from the Lord who is the Spirit.”
So it was clear, the Father in Holy Ghost form that fathered Jesus
is Jesus Himself as he was the image formed, and that it was God that was
manifested in the Lord. The Lord Jesus is God Himself. The Lord was the God
which we call Father.
So God is good, speaking through His vessels, and He continues to
manifest bodily, and differentiate things, from God and god, from ‘He’ and
‘he’. And we see that even the youth are considerate to whom who suffers from
lack of sleep, as they ended their drinking spree that I may have silence at
about 11:00 p.m. Tomorrow is Sunday.
This day now as I continue is Sunday, and I hear the bell rang Mass. I looked at my Bible and I was surprised that it had turned its pages almost at
calling for the first
the back cover. It says in 2 Corinthians 4 (with title Integrity in the
Ministry): “Therefore, since we have the ministry through the mercy shown us,
we are not discouraged. Rather, we have renounced shameful, hidden things: not
acting deceitfully or falsifying the word of God, but by the open declaration
of the truth we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of
God.”
It is an exact message for me to tell the truth and nothing but
that one, which I could reveal, honestly, that others may learn from my story.
God is indeed so good that if I would write all my thoughts and experiences
they could not fill many books on earth. Likewise, I am not Jesus but function
perhaps as I may fancy that I am his ‘walk-in’ as disciples, apostles, and
prophets are in accord with the Master.
Nothing can separate us, as the bond I have with family and
friends. Moreover, though no one knows the hour, for me the hour has come that
I may give myself like parted bread. As Jesus has shared in my life, I continue
to share Jesus to others to allow their faith in God to grow.
I, though I don’t take it as pride, continue to function as the St. the Baptist Cathedral; I was shocked with
light to the world and salt to the earth. I remember one time when I served as
sacristan (being a seminarian) at
John
something in heaven. Somehow a red ball of fire arose from a crescent moon and
with its light, it pierced the Bible and me.
I was horrified with such visual vision, that I ran crying till
I’m in our room which awakened the other seminarians including the now Fr.
Charles. They comforted me but I could not be stopped from my crying. As I was
running from the terrace to our room, repeatedly a voice followed me saying, “I
am the Light of the world, he who ever believes in me shall have the light of
Light.”
The following morning, I went to Ng Lilian Chua and barely related
what happened the night before as I continue to shed tears. She gave me a fare
to the seminary in Numancia, barely of ten kilometers from Kalibo, seven
perhaps, for me to see Fr. Vic Martelino, that with him, I may seek comfort.
Accordingly as I was riding in the back ride, I could not be stopped from
crying, and as I am closing my eyes, the beautiful face of Jesus stayed in my
inner vision all throughout the ride.
As I get my GSIS dividend, I used it to Xerox the chaplet of the Manila , as they were to attend Couples for
Holy Spirit and part I spent in procuring red rosaries, which I gave around
till in Capitol. I wrote a letter to the Franciscan under the encouragement of
Fr. Boy, and went along with Uncle Ernie and Auntie Baby to
Christ Convention while Auntie Molac accompanied me to Tagaytay that I may
enter in Order Friars Minor Conventual. Auntie Lelie was visiting me as the
group of Aspirants went back to Novaliches in the formation house of
Franciscan. As I was already with the monks in the convent, Dad visited me and
embraced me in the chapel. Mom was writing letters to me during my stay in
Novaliches. Later, Dad and me went to buy my clothes before he went back to
Aklan.
-Jyotisman Nearu Upendra.
